A Collection of Demonstrations and Demons

by The Long Wives

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I always record as I'm writing a song, and I share the first complete take with my listeners. These versions are newborn, unrehearsed and filled with an intimacy and immediacy that only comes with doing something for the very first time. While recording these demos, I also sing and play at the same time- because I think it ties the vocals and music together in a way you just can't achieve when tracking separately. Unfortunately, this means I cannot edit them even slightly later. But despite their flaws and flubs, (or maybe because of them?) these are my favorite versions of these songs and I love them dearly. I've decided to release them as a demo collection because they are a perfect reflection of who I am, just as they are. Like me, they are imperfect... but achingly sincere. Thank you for listening. -Brandy St. John

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released 10 August 2013
Vocals, guitar, piano and keyboard by Brandy St. John
All songs written, recorded and mixed by Brandy St. John in Los Angeles, California.

For my muse, wherever you are...

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The Long Wives Los Angeles, California

The Long Wives is the solo project of Brandy St. John.

"St. John spins haunting yarns, each woven simply with a guitar, piano and her throaty, impassioned voice. She makes beauty like you wouldn't believe." -Mishka

"Brandy's tender 'songs about death and love, and the death of love' bristle with a striking clarity. Songs to love without condition." -Dots and Dashes
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Track Name: Break You In
You shimmer like
The poisonous knife
As it goes in
Struck dumb and blind
Spellbound and tied
To your skin

Jesus Christ, I've served my time
And if I had the chance to do it all again
I'd break the chains of you
And I'd break you in

The snake entwines
He's yours and mine
Let him in
The garden black
Marks on your back
Speak of sin

Jesus Christ, I've served my time
And if I had the chance I'd do it all again
I'd break the chains of you
And I'd break you in
Track Name: La Vengenista
With my tin skeleton and a brand new ghost
I set sail for you on the Mexican coast
I had demons all wrapped up in my hair
I had angels armed to the teeth around me everywhere
“Anhelo, Anhelo
My lover my soul
I will find out where they buried you
And I will take you home”

I was wind, I was dust, I was fire
No, they could not hold me back, but Lord they tried
The birds rose and sang your name to the night
I went to the mountain, I raised up my hands and I cried:
“Anhelo, Anhelo
My lover my soul
I will find out where they buried you
And I will take you home”

When I left the town lit the sky
You have never seen flames rise so high
No, you have never seen flames rise so high....
Track Name: The Violence of Man
They're fighting in the streets
They're fighting on the TV
Did you learn to make a fist
Before you learned to speak?
And did you cut your teeth a little too soon?
The answer lies in your eyes
It lies in our wounds

The violence of man
The violence of the beast
The violence in your heart
Your violence for me
And the blood it runs by

The master comes to eat
The blood and the body
Now he's full of Christ
And the life of the party
He has a gun for you, he has a gun for me
He just asks that we all send him some money
All he really needs is a little more money...
Track Name: Cruel to Be Kind
He said “Show me where it hurts
And I promise you I will make it worse"
I’ve laid dead flowers at your feet
I’ve put the red on your lips
And licked the points on your teeth

Your heart is strange like mine
And sometimes it's cruel to be kind
I’ve led you to water and not let you drink
Because sometimes, sometimes, sometimes
It’s cruel to be kind

I’ve seen you bleedin’ on the floor
And I’ve never loved, never loved you more
The crowds all come to gather
When you rise to speak
And they hang on your words
Then they hang on the trees

Your heart is strange like mine
And sometimes it's cruel to be kind
I’ve led you to water and not let you drink
Because sometimes, sometimes, sometimes
It’s cruel to be kind
Track Name: Painted White
I’m painted white
And I’m buried deep in
Your underground
And the ghosts are mad
‘Cause it’s not easy
Just hangin ‘round

I no longer sleep
In the night of the sound
I fever dream
And I can’t be found

Your offerings
Are dark and profound
But it’s hard to breathe in
Your underground
And the ghosts are mad
‘Cause it’s not easy
Just hangin round
Track Name: Judas Hex
Nobody loves you like Judas
Puts his hands in your mouth
And pulls out your innocence
Can you taste the scorpions on his lips?
You are the devil now, you are his

You are the devil now
And trembling lights fill trembling skies
The lambs are on the run
The widows weep tonight

Nobody loves you like Judas
Wrapped in his wings you are perfect
But he is a fever and you're no longer his fever pitch
You are the devil now, you are his
Track Name: Pale and Blind
Oh darling,
I think about you all the time
Have you lost your innocence?
Have you lost your mind?

As pale as you want to be
As pale and blind

There's a house on a hill
It's not yours, it's not mine
And I no longer believe
In "Once upon a time"

As pale as you want to be
As pale and blind
Track Name: The Hollow Fin
The water came so quickly
Crashing in my mind
Hands so thin and hungry
Clawing back in time

And if I ever fed you
I hope I gave you what you need
And if the sun still shines upon you
I hope you sometimes think of me
I hope you sometime...
I hope you sometime...
And I'll be hollow
What else could I be?

Tender words unspoken
Turn so cruel on their vine
I never meant to sling an arrow
But love is vicious when it dies

And if I ever fed you
I hope I gave you what you need
And if the sun still shines upon you
I hope you sometimes think of me
I hope you sometime...
I hope you sometime...
And I'll be hollow
What else could I be?
Track Name: Shiver
She wept endlessly
But the dawn came so easily
It fell so softly upon her cold face
It caressed her brow with an angel's grace

Dark were the days I ran to you
And the shiver in these bones I gave to you
It's cruel the way I'm bound to you
Because love, for you, love is only love

She wept endlessly
But the dawn came so easily
And the shiver in her bones is hers now eternally
Track Name: Tongue
I’m twisting and writhing in the arms of this night
My soul is fevered, my eyes are on fire
Dear, you’re the curse on my house, on my home
You are the ghost that rattles my bones

This ache is so lovely I can taste it on my tongue
Dear, you’re the fever that tears me apart
Come pull me close at the height of agony
You are hungry, you are hungry and you belong to me

You can keep a wavin’ your gun at me
But Honey, I was born with a bullet in my teeth
So don’t you waste your precious time
Honey, I was born with the devil in my eyes...
Track Name: Over Your Bones
Death came calling, and I do believe
For Death tells no lies when he comes to me
And I cried over your bones

So I took your books and I took your clothes
And I took your chair and your lock of hair
And I laid them across your grave and I knelt down and I learned to pray
And I cried over your bones

So I asked my mother how to ease the pain
And I asked the Preacher, I asked him the same
They said "Kneel down and learn to pray"
So I spoke to God- but I felt the same
And I cried over your bones
Track Name: Dark Horse
He rides a dark horse
Crosses burned in its sides
He rides, hooded
In the dead of night
I call
I call to him
I call to the night

And the wind in the trees
Calls to me,
“Salvation, salvation!”
And I feel him breathe
Into me
Resurrection

He rides a dark horse
He doesn’t live; he does not die
He rides, shameless
Through this mountain side
I call
I call to him
I call to the night

And the wind in the trees
Calls to me
“Salvation, salvation!”
And I feel him breathe
Into me
Resurrection